Monthly Archives: July 2004

We collectively lost our marbles…

OK, my country has officially lost its marbles.

NL, as leader of the EU now, has given priority in the resolution queue to this proposal issued in April 2004 (see: On top of that they are also ‘positively receptive’ reported back in April the following legal analysis

Best excerpts from that page:

  • “This is a proposal so intrusive that Ashcroft, Ridge and company can only dream about it, exceeding even the US Patriot Act”
  • It will put in place the compulsory retention of all communications traffic and location data – land and mobile telephones, faxes, e-mails, internet histories and any future communications technology.

Did you notice the any future communications technology part? Are you the type of person that signs a contract with any company which basically is a blanket contract where the company can change your contract at will without you having to sign it again to agree to it?

Are we now so collectively brainwashed about the prospect of an impending terror attack that we are willing to sacrifice our basic freedoms? What is next? Registration of religion and sexual preference? I know, lets start up the Schutzstaffel again!

Words of Light

Over the last couple of days I have been busy updating a lot of support within DragonFly, think of firewire support, ATA/SATA, AC’97, bridges, PCI definitions, and so on.
Lovely stuff.

Now if only my AMD Athlon/Asus A7N8X box would boot. Something is wrong with the nexus attachment.

At the moment de-OSSGing my TenDRA sources. If you’re doing whitespace changes run md5 on the resulting object file before and after the changes. They should match.

chak de chak de chak de // Cast it off…
chak de saare gam // cast off every sorrow.
chak de chak de chak de // Cast it off…
tere sang hain hum // I’m by your side!

Chak de, from the Indian movie Hum Tum…

Sharing honours…

According to the political compass I am:

Economic Left/Right: -7.88<
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -3.28

Which means I am in the same quadrant as: Nelson Mandela, the Dalai Lama, and Mahatma Gandhi. Given I am also INFJ/INFP (according to the Jung-Myers-Briggs type indicator) this is not surprising, since NFs are the Idealists, the INFJs the Counselors, and the INFP the Healers. Gandhi is classified as a Counselor.

Nice quote with regard to INFJ:

“Come to the edge, he said,
They said: We are afraid
Come to the edge, he said.
They came,
He pushed them,
and they flew.”

— Guillaume Apollinaire

Furthermore, I am a musical thinker.

Musical thinkers:

  • Tend to think in sounds, and may also think in rhythms and melodies
  • Are sensitive to the sounds and rhythms of words as well as their meanings.
  • Feel a strong connection between music and emotions


Part of likewise named song from Sirenia’s ‘An Elixer for Existence’ album:

I feel the magic rushing in,
I feel the heavenworks ascend like a sun within,
all my travail is on the wane,
a lucid bliss sets in, and the world sails away…

I’m cold seed,
I’m your sweetest leaf,
I’ll ease your mind,
I’ll set you free…

My queen come rise in me,
hallucinations or a dream ascendancy?
I cry, come bring me on a high,
we’ll watch the angels fly, then we’ll ride the crimson sky…

Bought a bunch of new CDs:

Sirenia’s At Sixes and Sevens (to replace an accidentally badly scratched one),
Sirenia’s An Elixer for Existence,
Therion’s Deluxe Edition of Lemuria and Sirius B,
Theatre of Tragedy’s Assembly,
My Dying Bride’s Songs of Darkness, Words of Light,
and Katatonia’s Viva Emptiness.

The Reason

I just love this song from Hoobastank:

I’m not a perfect person
as many things I wish I didn’t do
but I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know:

I’ve found a reason for me
to change who I used to be,
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you…

I’m sorry that I hurt you
it’s something I must live with everyday
and all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears
that’s why I need you to hear:

I’ve found a reason for me
to change who I used to be,
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you…

Gaara – 我愛羅

Of course, some people might recognise the title. Sabaku no Gaara (砂瀑の我愛羅) being a character from the anime series. The name means: Gaara of the Desert. The name Gaara (我愛羅) itself is a combination of: ga-a(i)-ra, meaning: I, love, demon. In general you could read it as: “I love myself, I am a demon.”

The kanji ‘ai’:

For some reason I love this Kanji. Consists of 13 strokes.

DragonFly is pushing along nicely, Emiel a.k.a. coolvibe has managed to get into contact with the NVIDIA guys and is now even getting prerelease drivers! Way cool. Thanks to all the people supporting DragonFly in any way, your enthousiasm is what keeps us moving along.

One of my plans for DragonFly’s support is bootable images for ISO 9660 and diskettes which do various reporting on BIOSes and the like. This should provide clues into the wonderful world of whacked implementations.

I also started work on the bdb (BSD-licensed debugger) in order to support my own work as well as DragonFly.

Focus on your one purpose…

There are times when I seriously wonder about life and mankind, well, even moreso than I normally do.

Have I been thoroughly blessed by being reborn into my current life, my balance of karma weighing heavy in the positive side thus allowing me to be and become who I am today?

Why has my life been relatively non-complicated or drastic compared to the stories other people entrust in me? Why do they divulge this kind of information to me in the first place. All, in supreme confidence and faith, is being related to me. In itself not bad, but why is this gift, which some may indeed call curse, of profound empathy, understanding, caring, and healing so predominantly present in me?

Why do I see the endless possibilities still, when the people themselves have given up finding any new and possible ways to deal with their situation?
Why is their vision so bleak and worn down and do I still see the sun casting its last rays on a setting summer day, whilst they are already deep within the darkest hours or night?

What is it with me that I look beyond the person as they appear in front of me and see their radiant shining self, still lurking deep within themselves, as a flower bud, still waiting to bloom?

I do not mind, I love helping people. But sometimes the healer in me has a hard time keeping faith in the world around him, it feels so out of place, out of sync. As if you were plucked from another realm of time or space and planted into present day Terra.

Ah well, may I at least have left a warm hand print upon the heart and soul of those I encountered, made their bleak day a bit warmer and more colourful. Give love where little was…

Namu Amida butsu…

Beware of the fury of the patient man…

Some of these days just start whacked.

Manager asks me to overlook a CV of the guy who’s going to replace me. Sure, no problem. So I find the guy alright and now I have to help in interviewing him? Uhhh, this is funny. Not that usual in the Netherlands to do this…

Bored out of my mind, thankfully I can put the time to good use. Almost up to date on all episodes of Uzumaki Naruto.

Right now converting Amos’ script from elisp to Python. Going nicely thus far.

The weather makes me want to put on some Muse or likewise bands… Although I was listening to UK Punjabi remixes in the car on my way to work…

Butterflies on a Sea Wind

Some of those days are a mixture between the truly wonderful and truly weird.

Been actively sending in patches to other projects to support DragonFly natively. For projects using autoconf/config you need to bug the maintainers to update config.guess and config.sub so it detects DragonFly.

With TenDRA I am currently adding Amos’ -y flag, since it just makes sense to get rid of any hardwired stuff with regards to paths. Been looking at SuperH, ARM, and some other processors. Right now busy getting STLport working, of course, after I fix the -y flag and the building/* issues.

This is one of those days where you would put on Sigur Ros, The Counting Crows, Muse, or any other of those loveable melancholic bands…