Кто знает закон Бытия,
Помог бы и мне найти ответ.
Жестоко ошибся я:
От смерти лекарства нет.He who knows the Law of Genesis
would have helped me to find the answer
I was cruelly mistaken:
there is no medicine for deathFrom братья
your dream world is a very scary place
your dream world is a very scary place
your dream world is a very scary place
to be trappedyour dream world is a very scary place
your dream world is a very scary place
your dream world is a very scary place
to be trapped inside
to be trapped inside
to be trapped inside
all your lifeshine in time
shine in time
shine in time
until you findyou’re closer
you’re closer
to the truthwithin you
within you
within you
is the truththat your dream world is a very scary place
that your dream world is a very scary place
that your dream world is a very scary place
to be trapped inside
to be trapped inside
to be trapped inside
all your lifeyou’re closer
you’re closer
you’re closer
to the truthwithin you
within you
within you
is the truth– “Balance” – Anathema
Sometimes, some songs just ring so true…
This loneliness
has crushed my heart,
please let me love again
’cause I need your love to comfort me and ease my pain
or four seasons will bring the loneliness again…Four Seasons of Loneliness by Boyz II Men
I have watched the last half of winter thaw, seen spring go by, summer fleeting by so fast, autumn quickly approaching…
And then she’d say that nothing can go wrong.
When you’re in love, what can go wrong?
And then she’d laugh the nightime into day
pushing her fear further long.
– Reamonn’s Supergirl
Some of these days just seem to from one minute to the next drag you down in this state of melancholy. Well ok, I admit, I’m one of those people who has emotion and empathy coursing through his veins.
To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage…
To me, this rings so very true. I find myself being stronger and stronger each and every passing day as I continue to love those whom would hate me (and of course those who like and love me), love the simplest things in life… And I am sure there are people out there who love me for whom and what I am, thereby giving me the courage, which was already inside myself, to excel more and more into reaching the utmost depths of my humanity…
And then I gaze across the water when I ride home on my bicycle and I breathe the deepest sigh…
Over the last couple of days I have been busy updating a lot of support within DragonFly, think of firewire support, ATA/SATA, AC’97, bridges, PCI definitions, and so on.
Lovely stuff.
Now if only my AMD Athlon/Asus A7N8X box would boot. Something is wrong with the nexus attachment.
At the moment de-OSSGing my TenDRA sources. If you’re doing whitespace changes run md5 on the resulting object file before and after the changes. They should match.
chak de chak de chak de // Cast it off…
chak de saare gam // cast off every sorrow.
chak de chak de chak de // Cast it off…
tere sang hain hum // I’m by your side!Chak de, from the Indian movie Hum Tum…
Part of likewise named song from Sirenia’s ‘An Elixer for Existence’ album:
I feel the magic rushing in,
I feel the heavenworks ascend like a sun within,
all my travail is on the wane,
a lucid bliss sets in, and the world sails away…I’m cold seed,
I’m your sweetest leaf,
I’ll ease your mind,
I’ll set you free…My queen come rise in me,
hallucinations or a dream ascendancy?
I cry, come bring me on a high,
we’ll watch the angels fly, then we’ll ride the crimson sky…
Bought a bunch of new CDs:
Sirenia’s At Sixes and Sevens (to replace an accidentally badly scratched one),
Sirenia’s An Elixer for Existence,
Therion’s Deluxe Edition of Lemuria and Sirius B,
Theatre of Tragedy’s Assembly,
My Dying Bride’s Songs of Darkness, Words of Light,
and Katatonia’s Viva Emptiness.
I just love this song from Hoobastank:
I’m not a perfect person
as many things I wish I didn’t do
but I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know:I’ve found a reason for me
to change who I used to be,
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you…I’m sorry that I hurt you
it’s something I must live with everyday
and all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears
that’s why I need you to hear:I’ve found a reason for me
to change who I used to be,
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you…
Some of these days just start whacked.
Manager asks me to overlook a CV of the guy who’s going to replace me. Sure, no problem. So I find the guy alright and now I have to help in interviewing him? Uhhh, this is funny. Not that usual in the Netherlands to do this…
Bored out of my mind, thankfully I can put the time to good use. Almost up to date on all episodes of Uzumaki Naruto.
Right now converting Amos’ script from elisp to Python. Going nicely thus far.
The weather makes me want to put on some Muse or likewise bands… Although I was listening to UK Punjabi remixes in the car on my way to work…
Some of those days are a mixture between the truly wonderful and truly weird.
Been actively sending in patches to other projects to support DragonFly natively. For projects using autoconf/config you need to bug the maintainers to update config.guess and config.sub so it detects DragonFly.
With TenDRA I am currently adding Amos’ -y flag, since it just makes sense to get rid of any hardwired stuff with regards to paths. Been looking at SuperH, ARM, and some other processors. Right now busy getting STLport working, of course, after I fix the -y flag and the building/* issues.
This is one of those days where you would put on Sigur Ros, The Counting Crows, Muse, or any other of those loveable melancholic bands…